still going and growing
and another day has passed. my internet is still down so im in my car. classy.
its 12:25 wednesday night. i just got back from seeing the movie Cars with tim. it was amazing. seriously. so good. im amazed. and when i first saw the previews i was kinda disappointed in pixar, but wow, they blew me away with this one. though i dont know if its one that i would want to watch again and again, like some of their others.
im so glad that tim suggested we go see the movie. it took my mind off things for 2 hours. which was so refreshing. in those two hours, i dont know if the rape even crossed my mind. which is the longest time span other than while im asleep.
the support of my friends continues to amaze me. a lot of people have been asking me how i am doing. i give them an honest answer and tell them that i think i am handling things really well. and that despite how horrible this all is, i have never felt so much love. never imagined i could experience so much love. i am so glad that i have been open about this all. everyone is so genuinely concerned and supportive, and i know that without all this help, i couldn't honestly answer people that i am good.
so far the only major changes i have noticed in myself are positive, that i am growing from this. (obviously there are some negatives, but minor thus far) i think i am more level headed or something because all of this. and i am loving myself more. i already had a healthy level of self-confidence, but i know i am growing even more. that and ive been sitting with my legs crossed a lot more. or least i think so...
its 12:25 wednesday night. i just got back from seeing the movie Cars with tim. it was amazing. seriously. so good. im amazed. and when i first saw the previews i was kinda disappointed in pixar, but wow, they blew me away with this one. though i dont know if its one that i would want to watch again and again, like some of their others.
im so glad that tim suggested we go see the movie. it took my mind off things for 2 hours. which was so refreshing. in those two hours, i dont know if the rape even crossed my mind. which is the longest time span other than while im asleep.
the support of my friends continues to amaze me. a lot of people have been asking me how i am doing. i give them an honest answer and tell them that i think i am handling things really well. and that despite how horrible this all is, i have never felt so much love. never imagined i could experience so much love. i am so glad that i have been open about this all. everyone is so genuinely concerned and supportive, and i know that without all this help, i couldn't honestly answer people that i am good.
so far the only major changes i have noticed in myself are positive, that i am growing from this. (obviously there are some negatives, but minor thus far) i think i am more level headed or something because all of this. and i am loving myself more. i already had a healthy level of self-confidence, but i know i am growing even more. that and ive been sitting with my legs crossed a lot more. or least i think so...
posted by j at 10:28 PM
1 Comments:
we're just sharing back what you've been giving us all along. you're one of the most amazing friends ever and i think most of your friends would agree. so, it's just coming back to you when you need it most.
i'm glad you're doing as well with this as you are. i'm proud to know you and the type of person you are. the strength, positive thinking, appreciation, and life.
it's not just your little cousin that looks up to you. i think a lot of people do in different regards.
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