a day later
its 12:07 tuesday night/wednesday morning and my bootleg internet isnt working, so i will post this later.
i think i am handling things well. but sometimes i wonder if i am handling it too well-- as in a form of avoidance or something. but i think i am just staying level-headed and logical.
i spent most of the day yesterday at the police station. gave them my bloody skirt and told the whole story too many times. while i was with an officer giving my super-detailed synopsis of my entire night, dude texts me, “did we mess around?” weird, right? after the day before he told me we didnt have sex. the officer also thought that was super weird.
when i left the station, the detective told me he’d be calling dude in a few minutes. and that they would tell him not to have any contact with me. about 20 minutes later i get a phone call from dude. obviously i dont answer. so he calls again. i still dont answer. i leave my house. within an hour, i got 4 calls with two voicemails and 3 text messages. apparently he wants me to call him and said he doesnt know whats going on. the fourth call i answered because it showed up on caller id as “restricted” and i thought it might be the detective calling me back because i had left a message about dude calling me. i hung up on dude as soon as he said his name.
naturally, i freaked out a bit. a bit stalkerish. and he was at my house 2 months ago,but he might not remember where i live since a lot of places look the same. as much as it sucked getting those phone calls and texts, im kind of glad because it makes him look bad. if i can take this to court, hopefully it will help. rape cases hardly ever go anywhere.
i was a bit nervous last night but i am calm now. i had friends with me all night last night. been doing a lot of that. i think thats best. not “going out” but just hanging out. dinner. movies. etc. and tomorrow night i finally get to go see ‘cars’ which obviously im stoked about. little things to look forward to.
as much as my situation sucks, its not that bad because i have the best support group i could ever ask for. i am an open person and have been open about the rape to just about anyone except my parents and most of the family. for me, i think its important to be open about this because its natural for me to be open. and because i have been open about this, i have recieved amazing amounts of support from my friends. i know i have said many many times that i have the most amazing friends in the world, but this is such a testament. the love i have been experiencing is exactly what i need right now and i am so very grateful to have so much.
i think i am handling things well. but sometimes i wonder if i am handling it too well-- as in a form of avoidance or something. but i think i am just staying level-headed and logical.
i spent most of the day yesterday at the police station. gave them my bloody skirt and told the whole story too many times. while i was with an officer giving my super-detailed synopsis of my entire night, dude texts me, “did we mess around?” weird, right? after the day before he told me we didnt have sex. the officer also thought that was super weird.
when i left the station, the detective told me he’d be calling dude in a few minutes. and that they would tell him not to have any contact with me. about 20 minutes later i get a phone call from dude. obviously i dont answer. so he calls again. i still dont answer. i leave my house. within an hour, i got 4 calls with two voicemails and 3 text messages. apparently he wants me to call him and said he doesnt know whats going on. the fourth call i answered because it showed up on caller id as “restricted” and i thought it might be the detective calling me back because i had left a message about dude calling me. i hung up on dude as soon as he said his name.
naturally, i freaked out a bit. a bit stalkerish. and he was at my house 2 months ago,but he might not remember where i live since a lot of places look the same. as much as it sucked getting those phone calls and texts, im kind of glad because it makes him look bad. if i can take this to court, hopefully it will help. rape cases hardly ever go anywhere.
i was a bit nervous last night but i am calm now. i had friends with me all night last night. been doing a lot of that. i think thats best. not “going out” but just hanging out. dinner. movies. etc. and tomorrow night i finally get to go see ‘cars’ which obviously im stoked about. little things to look forward to.
as much as my situation sucks, its not that bad because i have the best support group i could ever ask for. i am an open person and have been open about the rape to just about anyone except my parents and most of the family. for me, i think its important to be open about this because its natural for me to be open. and because i have been open about this, i have recieved amazing amounts of support from my friends. i know i have said many many times that i have the most amazing friends in the world, but this is such a testament. the love i have been experiencing is exactly what i need right now and i am so very grateful to have so much.
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